SINK OR SWIM?

SOMETIMES LIFE FEELS TOUGH, TOO TOUGH. IT IS EASY TO SUCCUMB TO OUR MISERY, AND WALLOW IN IT. SOMETIMES THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL OF OUR TRIALS SEEMS TO ONLY FLICKER, OR IS EVEN GONE. HOW THEN DO WE OVERCOME THE DARKNESS THROUGH OUR TRIALS?

I HAVE FOUND MYSELF FOR ALMOST A YEAR NOW STRUGGLING. IT STARTED WITH A VERY DIFFICULT PREGNANCY, THAT DEBILITATED ME PHYSICALLY AND THEN EMOTIONALLY. FINALLY, AFTER HAVING MY BEAUTIFUL BABY BOY, I BEGAN TO FEEL BETTER, UNFORTUNATELY IT DIDN’T LAST LONG. MY NEWBORN HAD HEALTH ISSUES, NOTHING LIFE THREATENING, BUT DIFFICULT NONETHELESS. HE HAS GERD, AND IN RESULT HE RARELY SLEEPS, AND EATING IS PAINFUL FOR HIM. MY POOR BABY CRIES A LOT, AND IT IS HARD TO HEAR, BECAUSE I FEEL SO BAD FOR HIM. I THINK THE MIXTURE OF MY SLEEP DEPRIVATION AND FRUSTRATION OF A YEAR OF TRIALS HAS PUT ME OVER THE EDGE. I FEEL OVERWHELMED, I AM OH SO TIRED….

YET, THROUGH IT ALL MY SAVIOR BEACONS TO TURN TO HIM. AT TIMES I DECIDE TO BE A MARTYR AND WALLOW ONCE AGAIN. THEN, I BREAK DOWN AND HUMBLE MYSELF, AND PLEAD FOR STRENGTH. I AM CHOOSING TO BETTER MYSELF NO MATTER WHAT LIFE MAY BRING. LIFE IS DIFFICULT, BUT MORE SO IT IS BEAUTIFUL AND I AM CHOOSING TO SEE THE BEAUTY. WHEN IT COMES DOWN TO IT, IT TRULY IS A CHOICE.

THIS MORTAL EXPERIENCE IS FLEETING AND I WANT MY LEGACY TO BE ONE OF STRENGTH AND OPTIMISM. THE ONLY WAY I CAN ACHIEVE THIS FEAT IS THROUGH JESUS CHRIST. I WILL GIVE MY ALL, BUT IT WILL NEVER BE ENOUGH. YET, HE WILL MAKE UP THE DIFFERENCE, AND HELP ME TO BECOME THE WOMAN I AM STRIVING TO BECOME. I KNOW THAT THE SAVIOR WILL HELP ME FIND THE JOY IN THE JOURNEY.

MY SWEET GRAYSON AT 8 WEEKS. IT SEEMS EVERY PICTURE I HAVE OF HIM IS OF HIM YAWNING. I THINK HE IS MORE TIRED THAN I AM! NO, IMPOSSIBLE!!

GIBSON HOLDING GRAYSON, AND YAWNING ONCE AGAIN...